In life we set out on a path, but before that path is ever our own there are many loved ones trying to pave the way for us. For many different reasons, not to repeat their mistakes, trying to live through us, teach us life faster then they learned. Everyone who cares puts in their two cents on what they think is best for us. I get it I really do, I've done it to my little sister Mandie, and then I realized we all have our own life, our own future and our own story.
Walking around the room in moms heels. putting on her lipstick. Dancing around on daddys feet and helping him on every project. Helping grandma in the kitchen and Papa in the yard...I was a part of their stories and they are a part of mine. In the end we all create our own. They way we choose to live and fulfill our dreams and goals is to be determined on a day by day basis or maybe even hour by hour.
As a teenager I had my fair share of disappoint with life. Made plenty of mistakes and learned as I went along the way. Some mistakes I repeated a couple times, until I decided I was done. I thought I'd be 23 married, kids...and 23 came and went. I've always wanted kids but now on the edge of the ledge of 34 I'm feeling like I don't have enough time. There are so many things I want to do, places I want to see, and experiences I want to happen. It's still there, the thought, but so is the rest of the world.
oh and then there is that word commitment. I feel I was committed to everyones life but mine until I was in my late 20's. Now I'm committed to mine and I want to be selfish...there is nothing wrong with that only that society tries to convice us it's not the norm. So here I am telling you and convincing myself of what I already know to be true. That I want to live wildly and free!